Posted by kuotsung | Posted in Uncategorized | Posted on 19-05-2010
Chronic pain is nothing new to me. The on and off pain from my lower back slip disc has already been one unfortunate area in my life I have come into acceptance.
Sending out one-way resumes is nothing new to me. The occasional chances of bring interviewed only to be told that they will consider and call me again is one unfortunate reality I have to deal with currently.
Holidays are so feared by me. I do not need the long breaks. I am a workaholic. I need the satisfaction from working my socks off in order for me to really enjoy my days. No one can overestimate me if they think I do not know how to enjoy life. But I just need the hard work for me to really make my enjoyment a deserved one. Chronic enjoyment. So pathetic.
These few days of neck sprain really kinda brought me bed-ridden. I realised I have not been really enjoying my vacation since my Australia Perth trip almost a year back. I questioned myself why do I have to sustained myself to a load and pressure of as if the whole family needs my bread-winning.
Health is really just the wealth people needs, or at least I need. I can forget about working, or enjoying anything if my neck and back are so screwed. Vacations now give me so much of lessons to be learnt. CSS language was my prize last semester of vacation. This period of vacations gotta be more prized and valued.
Seemed like self-consolation eh? Being happy is so not easy. But I still think that is basis of life. Will anyone share this sentiment as me?
Never mind if you do not. I once promised you that I will take care of myself so I can take care of, not just you anymore unfortunately, but others.
The chronic pain extends more than my neck and back, surely.
emo boy. lol