I was planning how to get back using the tracks on the roads. Observing as well how the cyclist turns and manoeuvred. But I am rushing for time to the meetup place. It was far, yet I didn’t know it was that far.
I keep walking and hoping the next building was the one. The numbers not yet tallied. Searching for ATM was the next priority for I did not have any cash at all to pay for my purchase. However the ATM only allowed me to withdraw 800 instead of the 1900 I was hoping for. Screw it. I am late. Hope the seller will wait for me.
Half am hour later I reached the place, exhausted. The walk was far far too lengthy. Took me an hour to walk. I am very late. It was already 4.30pm, way off the time of the scheduled 4pm. I saw no one. Being alone in a country far away is boring and daunting enough, much less in another place so far from my stay in a foreign land. Left with the last resort will be to on my iPhone roaming to check if he replied to the emails. After sending him my contact details and apologies, the last thing would be to hope he will call back and come back to meet me. 900kb of data used. I could not bear to think of the charges incurred back at home.
45 minutes of futile wait yielded no results. I am giving up at the half an hour mark. The thought of walking back for the next hour scares me.
My spoiling sneakers hurt my feet. The weather is so damn good now I could only be armed with my iPhone camera. No complains. The weather will be as good comes the next time I am here at the harbour. Similarly I will be back with a bike as my vehicle.
At least I reached an attraction today! Toronto musical garden. Finally saw some waters in my stay here. Though the result could not be more sad, seriously. But positivity rules!
Tired. The breeze so cooling but another stretch of roads await me ahead. Gosh. 12 hours ahead you people are sleeping. Who can I tell now regarding my plight? Anyway, 1 more hour to home. More hours to lay my legs on a bike!
P.S I found out my bag was stuck with chewing GUM!! Damn it!! A day could not be worse…..
Posted by kuotsung | Posted in After-thoughts, Travel | Posted on 24-08-2010
4 days (or 3?) settling into Toronto city. I totally have no mood of thinking I am travelling or exchange. The mere thought of thinking I have to settle down here for another 4 months and a further month in this far end of the continent got me really shivering.
How difficult it is to adapt? Perhaps I am too good at adapting that I have no feelings to my surroundings here. Shoved off the map; how difficult it is to get lost if we are to ply the routes for the next 4 months?
I have no intention to start any travel blog on my trip here. Maybe except until I got to the final month of true exploring this North America with no educational botherings hanging in my mind.
5 months away will be the longest I will be away so far. To say I miss those people I care for so much is already an understatement. “Missing” is just a word. The emotion could never ever be described in any language of civilisation. The 12 hours of time difference really just made the feelings even harder to acknowledge.
The idea of connections start from the simplest of things or smells or thoughts or conversations or sights that allowed me to even fail to not think of you.
I just wanna settle down at a permanent residential housing ASAP. This entrapment of 4 walls inside a hostel, albeit clean and fabulous, is killing me from all rational thinkings. Phone lines to settle, school courses to settle, transportation to settle etc etc etc….
How to tell you I miss you?
Posted by kuotsung | Posted in After-thoughts | Posted on 12-08-2010
我变得不会太会说话了。
不是不会发表我的观点，而是不会说些让人去信服的话。
花言巧语不是我强项。承诺像空头支票。把难听点的话说地婉转点我或许就不赖。
重点在于我很在乎别人对我的信任。问题因此出在这。说得头头是道容易有眼高手低的可能性。说得附有理性及逻辑缺乏那一点有魅力的说服力。
与其尝试在两者之间找个适中的妙语法则，不如用行动来证明我想要大家可以信服的是值得信服的。
甜言蜜语不在我与你之间出现才是让简简单单的我x你三字更有诚意。
做傻子很好啊。傻子也有梦想，就是希望其他人也都变成傻子。谁才是真正的傻子呢？
Posted by kuotsung | Posted in After-thoughts | Posted on 09-08-2010
多两个星期就飞了。半年前的愿望现在就像在冷嘲热讽地笑说我许的愿成真了！
我不可能会后悔这个选择。我想我绝对会比任何去交流的人还想念我爱的人。而我爱的人也绝对不会辜负我看似残酷的期望。
也没什么残酷。只不过是5个月，又不是5年。
我很爱家人啦。脸上看不出啊，没血没泪的外表不代表一切。不见五个月还真是活之久以来最长的一次。
这个假放得太长了。放得我真的十分愧疚。钱赚不多，花得虽不挥霍，却也不则安之。
我早出晚归，迟睡迟起，或整夜不归，又有调酒的嗜好，我从不被责骂过。不是因为我不备受在乎，而是备受信任。家人完全了解我根本不会作出为损个人名誉或身体的伤害。我所得的体恤与谅解不会被滥用。恶习不缠身是我对这些爱最基本的接纳。所以酗酒成瘾我绝不允许让自己发生。
写了一半就去了4天4夜的云顶金马仑游。再度重温4年前我家的旧梦。会否每4年都去吗？我不知道。最棒的回忆仍停留在4年前。但我真的很珍惜眼前的一切一切。真的。
要飞了。半年前的执着已变成一项设法延长任何所存的时间的任务。
而我也真的没后悔当初的选择。
新加坡国庆日快乐！会想你！
